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If Heaven Was... by Zephyri If Heaven Was... by Zephyri
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Edit: uploaded a better scan, as I wasn't happy with the first one. Sorry for the repetition for those of you who have me on your devwatch.

Deep breath... I really donít know where to start with this piece...

Every now and again in life, you will come across someone who really understands you, who sees the world in the same way you do. You may only meet them briefly, you may know them all your life, but they inspire something in you, sparks something that leaves a flame burning for a long time after.

I knew such a man once. He won me over with the first sentence he spoke, and I came to respect him more than I have anyone else in my life. He opened my eyes to the gift I have and taught me to look at the world through the eyes of an artist. I think he alone saw the potential that lurked beneath a young girlís scribblings, though I wasnít ready to appreciate it then, he helped mould me into what I am now. In return, I worked ceaselessly to make him proud, and would have gone to the ends of the earth to see that smile on his face that said Iíd met his expectations.

He passed away suddenly nearly five years ago, and I had not seen him for two years when it happened. I read of his death in the paper, and since that moment of utter disbelief, every time I have picked up a pencil or laid down a stroke with a paintbrush his memory burns brighter. The fire he lit has become a raging inferno, but it is tempered with regret. I regret never thanking him, even though I perhaps never realised what he had given me until death stole him from me. Now I think of him constantly nd miss him more than the crudeness of words can express. I feel his presence is strongest when I look at the stars, as I like to think when they twinkle that little bit brighter, that is his way of telling me he knows. I donít think Iíll ever meet such a man again. To his dragon, I was but a simple fairy. And still am.

So this piece is a reflection of all that... the desire to put to paper that which keeps the fire of inspiration burning in me. So if heaven was a well of wishes, my first would be a simple thank you.

Thanks Mr D, wherever you are...
____

My thanks also to ~serp-stock for providing just the right reference shot for the body.
Karisma Pencils on black A3 card
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WolfySnackrib Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
I had a wise man in my life with me, all my life. He was my father. He's the strongest, toughest, most wise and insightful individual that I have ever met. I'm 22 now and he died a month back. The world won't be the same without him. I can relate to what you're saying.
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
My deepest condolences for your loss, it means a lot to me that you can relate with your own experiences through this piece.
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WolfySnackrib Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2012
Yes, and I feel lucky to have been his son. He was like a god to me. In which case, I suppose I could brag about being a demigod. ;)
But he was a very mystical man. Other than being a grand painter artist and having a very fascinating life full of extraordinary experiences, he also displayed strange powers. Like an ability to channel his bodily energies to heal ailments like almost lethal concussions, infections, even help stop the blood flow in wounds of others. If he ever cut himself deeply on something, he could decrease the blood flow just by control of his mind. He also claimed to have past life memories, and not just fragments. I was always deeply fascinated, listening to him retelling lots of memories that he had. I know there's no objective evidence and that the rational thing to do is to be skeptic about such things, but since he was my father and I saw demonstration of what a peculiar individual that he was, I always felt genuinely convinced that his peculiar claims are true. Not because I find any of them comforting. The reason is that I'm convinced that he isn't crazy or lying, but telling the truth. I don't try to preach stuff like this to anyone else of course. Especially not since I'm an atheist without religious belief in anything dogmatic. I encourage people to question everything, to be rational and not listen to hearsay. And you hearing this from me is of course hearsay. None the less, my father was the best person I ever met. So caring, devoted, and brave too. A natural leader and strategist. I'm not surprised about his claims that some of his previous lives involved battle, because he really has the personality of someone who has their shit together and natural ability to lead. Ah I talk too much about these things. I figure I should finish this comment now.
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
No worries on talking... sometimes it's just good to let it out, and I find the whole story fascinating myself, as someone who finds it hard to quantify what I believe in, spiritually. What matters ultimately though, is what it all meant to you, regardless of what other do or don't believe.
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WolfySnackrib Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2012
I disagree from one perspective. If one say that what's important is what it means to me, that's as if saying my belief is justified just by me deciding I am justified, and if that clashes with reality, it can do harm to society if big groups follow along with it. That's how religion sweeps in and undermines the progress of mankind. But as one individual person that don't have a negative impact on the future of the world, then sure, from my perspective it matters for me, to me, rather than that it matters to anyone else.
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Sinister-Scribe Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2011
that's beautiful, i'm ready to cry, lol

seriously though, the words and the image. I know someone like that. I haven't seen her in a while either, perhaps it's time to look her up again. I have no idea how to find her, but i have to try :)

And, for what it's worth, i think he knows.
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2011  Professional Digital Artist
Aw, thank you.. always leaves me with goosebumps whenever someone says that. And do what you can, even if you don't find her, you'll know you made the effort, which I didn't. :(
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Sinister-Scribe Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2011
I managed to track her down last night, turns out that facebook does have a use. I sent her an email, i don't know if she got it, but i tried, so i feel better for it.

Lol, she probably doesn't even remember me, but you're right, i had to try.

I don't think you should feel bad about you not actually telling him, i think he knew. He must have, he watched you grow into an artist of significant talent, i don't think he'd have been oblivious to the effect he had on you.

He knew, i'm sure of it :)
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Pearleace Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2011
This is a very magnificent piece. Thank you for sharing your story, at the moment I'm going through something rather similar~
It speaks for my heart also, better than I could express it myself. So, thank you for posting. :heart:
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Ryuu-Alvara Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2011  Student Artist
wow. the artwork itself is beautiful and lovely, but i think you have a talent with words. what you listed in the artists comments is so deep, i nearly cried.
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loporonski777 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2011
the hottest most sexy-cute fairy ive ever seen
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OpheliaImmortal7 Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is a beautiful piece :) well done :)

and for the words you wrote im so sorry for your loss :( my eyes were filling up reading this :( but his memory will always be strong with you especially when you draw :) and he was right to see something in you, your an amazing artist :)
*huge huggles*
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will-o-the-wispy Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
this piece is incredible. beautiful work. well done.
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blackava Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2010
I luv it!!!!!!!!! oh my gosh, it is amazing!
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1heaven8 Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
wow its beautiful i love the inspiration behind it
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Wiggum42 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2010
Beautiful picture. And your story was so touching.
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J-a-n-t-i-n-a Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2010
It's really beatiful!! It remainds me of a man I loved.. but when I fanaly had the courage to tell him how much I loved him and that I've always been watching him he died in a car accedent.. :'( without even knowing how I felt..
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nogen Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2009
Nice detail color..
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HopelessBeliever Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2009  Hobbyist
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Please :+fav:
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Starcraftor Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2009
Beautiful. Shockingly so. :hug:
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Nerd2096 Featured By Owner May 23, 2009
Thanks for drawing this. I think sometimes we need to remember people who aren't with us and this is a great way of doing that...
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Zephyri Featured By Owner May 31, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you, comments like this really make my day
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Nerd2096 Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2009
No problem. It really is beautiful.I have a teacher sort of like that. Hes traveled the world and hes just extrodinary.
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Vashra Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2009
It seemed inappropriate to add this particular piece to my favourites. I find the art exquisite, but this ... this I could not simply collect into my horde of other's aptitude for quill and design.

I grieve with thee.
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agnijith Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yes, there are people who just change you with their presence.

Nice picture.
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
Indeed there are, here's hoping you know where I'm coming from! And thanks!
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agnijith Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:)
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Spiriting0Dreams Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2009
what a wonderful piece
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you!
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Spiriting0Dreams Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2009
you are welcome
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Zoneh Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2009
Wow, this is so beautiful, and what you put in the description is also so...
I agree with you, for every fairy there is some kind of dragon. Some are just lucky to know them, some might never will...
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
I'd like to think everyone meets someone like that at some point in their life, even if it's members of their family, or total strangers who show them something new.
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Dusk9 Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2009  Student Traditional Artist
Wow, this piece is amazing. The wording is similar to a situation I'm in with a guy like that. It's truly a gorgeous work of art!
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you!
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xpsychoticxinsanityx Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2008
reminds me of amy brown
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Sonicchick113 Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2008  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh my goodness! Just beautiful!
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2008  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you!
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Sonicchick113 Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2008  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Welcome!
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nemalo Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2008  Student
This is wonderful...
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2008  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you!
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pearwood Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2008  Hobbyist Photographer
A beautiful tribute.
Steve
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2008  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you
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raebeck Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2008
Absolutely striking, stunning and somehow I just can't think of any words to express it's beauty.
I know I am late in posting a comment but hey thought I'd let you know what I thought of this piece
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2008  Professional Digital Artist
Aw, thanks, late or not, I appreciate you taking the time to tell me you liked the piece. Especially as it's this one.
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raebeck Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2008
well your very welcome
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Liamythesh Featured By Owner May 30, 2008  Hobbyist Digital Artist
beyond words. Love the way the wings resemble peacock feathers in a way.
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2008  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you
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cha-ohs Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2008  Hobbyist Photographer
wow.

i remember seeing your gallery on elfwood years ago and i just came across this picture (which i adore)
dang.

insta fave/watch
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Zephyri Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2008  Professional Digital Artist
Oi, that gallery, minus a couple of pieces, is so oold. Glad you found this one instead, though!
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bluebaby3296 Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2008
im at a loss for words...all i can say is thank you for posting this and creating this masterpiece. You truly are talented.
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